December 2012

Looking Back To Look Forward

December 18, 2012

It’s that time of the year again when everyone starts reflecting on the last 12 months. We’re less than a couple of weeks away from 2013 and the countdown is starting. Reflecting on the highs and lows. The “accomplishments”. The goal lists ticked off. At the same time it’s been a few days since the news of a tragic and gruesome shooting of innocent school children that has taken the world by storm. Yet another shooting I think. My heart breaks as I look at my  14-month old precious T who is starting to take her first steps and I just weep. I look at her and think how blessed and grateful I am. I think of all the grief stricken parents whose hearts are bleeding with pain over their loss. I think of all the lost lives across the war torn landscapes throughout this year. I take a deep breath and console myself that those innocent souls are now in the Creator’s hands. Safe. At peace. Somehow this news is sobering and puts everything else in perspective.

I sit there and try to think of the key accomplishments of the last 12 months and none of it really comes close to seeing my baby girl take her first steps. As cliched as it may be my heart is captured by this tiny person and everything I do revolves around her. I ponder on some career decisions I’ve made during the last 12 months that may not seem to make sense to others but make perfect sense to me. As a parent you learn to make decisions that are right in your heart. You learn to trust your gut.

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