Looking Back To Look Forward

December 18, 2012

It’s that time of the year again when everyone starts reflecting on the last 12 months. We’re less than a couple of weeks away from 2013 and the countdown is starting. Reflecting on the highs and lows. The “accomplishments”. The goal lists ticked off. At the same time it’s been a few days since the news of a tragic and gruesome shooting of innocent school children that has taken the world by storm. Yet another shooting I think. My heart breaks as I look at my  14-month old precious T who is starting to take her first steps and I just weep. I look at her and think how blessed and grateful I am. I think of all the grief stricken parents whose hearts are bleeding with pain over their loss. I think of all the lost lives across the war torn landscapes throughout this year. I take a deep breath and console myself that those innocent souls are now in the Creator’s hands. Safe. At peace. Somehow this news is sobering and puts everything else in perspective.

I sit there and try to think of the key accomplishments of the last 12 months and none of it really comes close to seeing my baby girl take her first steps. As cliched as it may be my heart is captured by this tiny person and everything I do revolves around her. I ponder on some career decisions I’ve made during the last 12 months that may not seem to make sense to others but make perfect sense to me. As a parent you learn to make decisions that are right in your heart. You learn to trust your gut.

It’s easy to get caught up in all the doom and gloom. The tragic heart breaking news. The sadness and the injustice and believe that is all there is in this world. Yet somehow we learn to believe in a better tomorrow. Somehow we believe in hope. We look for the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. I look at my baby girl take a few steps, wobble, fall, pick herself up with no hesitation at all and try again with even more oomph. I see the determination in her eyes and I think to myself at what point do we lose that sense of hope as adults. At what point do we “give up” because it’s too hard. I see that raw determination in those beaming eyes and I am reminded that there is always hope. That a fall doesn’t determine our end result. That trying always pays off.

Wherever you are in your life personally, professionally there’s hope for a better tomorrow. Saying that we must be grateful for today. For now. These are the only real moments we own. Such unimaginable tragedies remind us to laugh a bit more, hug a little longer, love a little stronger and always keep the faith. It reminds us that sometimes “good enough” is the best we can be without the guilt. Perfection is an urban myth. Good enough is real.

In sombre reflection on the year that has just passed and looking forward to 2013 I was inspired by a refreshing take on the concept of a New Year’s Evolution by a friend, Doug Shaw. In following Doug’s guidelines this is what I’m looking to be guided by in 2013:

  • Joy – I will scout for joy in all I do, at work, play, home, even commuting! Why should joy be reserved for special occasions?
  • Completing – projects at home, at work, seeing ideas to fruition, tackling those lists!
  • Balance – focusing on what really matters, sometimes having to say no, prioritizing based on my values, working to create that sought after work-life balance
  • Hope – however dark the times believing in a better tomorrow. Picking myself up and trying. Then trying some more.

Here’s to a better 2013.

Photo Credit: Freedigitalphotos.net


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Doug Shaw December 19, 2012 at 7:50 am

Scouting for joy. Now there’s a purpose I can relate to. Love it!


Javier November 22, 2014 at 9:29 am

That is a beautiful board! And I think you’re right–turning pain into art is wininng! I love this quote: “Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.” ~George Bernard ShawTake care, my friend~ <3


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